desi16 | Ichiban Change

Two days ago I re-wrote my bias list because it had become obvious that my biases in the company had changed over time. I was holding onto the same list I had created when I first entered the fandom and that's not the best idea because I didn't know everybody well enough. I thought KAT-TUN was going to be my favorite group when actually they turned out to be one of those groups I barely follow in comparison to the others~ I still love KAT-TUN of course, but you know I found other groups more appealing. Anyways, I decided that Hey! Say! JUMP wasmy favorite group when I became a JE fan, they were the most interesting and they were doing so much when I entered the fandom too, their newest song at that time was SUPER DELICATE and you could imagine that after proclaiming Yamada Ryosuke as my ichiban that I was flipping out and doing cartwheels when that PV came out, but if you read my last post about Hey! Say! JUMP they had been boring as of late. I am starting to find the jrs. very appealing lately, they do so much and are important to the company, although it's the most heartbreaking part of this fandom, I fell in love with the jrs. Especially one jr in particular named Iwahashi Genki. I had actually been doubting for a while if Yama-chan was still my ichiban or not~ because I talked way more about other Johnny's than him this whole first year of college, my roommate even thought my ichiban was Tama because I talked about Tama way more than Yama-chan. However, I still love Yama-chan he's still really special to me, I think he's a great performer and is suited to be the center of JUMP although that gets him hate all the time. It's just lately as I've been into the jrs. I've been looking for this kid named Iwahashi Genki more and more and more until finally episode 8 of SHARK 2 aired and if you didn't know he plays a rock star in an indies band called BTS or Behind the Scene and I basically cried in front of my two friends because my cute image of him had just been destroyed. I don't cry over idols like that and I don't break things over idols either. I ripped the page of my DVD case while turning on accident because Genki came on screen during ABC-Z densetsu. I feel really bad to Ebi because I paid WAY more attention to Genki in the back then them in the front. So I re-wrote my bias list to be more honest with myself. To be honest it still hurts knowing that I am this unloyal to the people I had said i loved most and also Genki is a jr. What if he left Johnny's? I honestly don't know what to do with myself if he does leave...I might cry for a while and wear black, possibly skip class that day if it was during the school year. My world might crumble knowing that he could leave any minute without notice. This is why from now on I'm probably going to be a fragile fan, I don't want to see him go, but there is this small beam of light shining down on me, he's in that Sexy Boyz thing with Marius and Jinguji, I ship Jinguiwa obviously and Marius is my fav in Sexy Zone so that was just like a blessing straight from heaven for me.

I think the reason I love him so much is because he's come so far, when he started out he was just a kid who was bullied and had happiness issues. I thought that people telling him things like "for someone named Genki you sure aren't that happy" was kind of mean, however I myself thought that was at one point i think XD I found it so cute, he was extremely awkward and had droopy puppy eyes. Now he's doing photo shoots that make a girl want to fan herself so she doesn't pass out. He's at that I'm super cute, but also dangerously sexy when I want to be stage and it's giving me major problems and I can't ignore him anymore! he's now the love of my life and I need Johnny to debut him like tomorrow!

I will now post my official bias list on livejournal as well.

Iwahashi Genki-Ichiban
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