desi16 | My preference

So last time I ranted about how I hated Kpop and this, that, and the other. But I'm slowly realizing that even if I hate or dislike Kpop, Kpop is going to continue to be popular for a while, I'm not sure for how long, since music fads such as this in history have tended to go in and out of style~ but with the power of the internet, it may have no where to go but up! that aside, I realized even if Kpop stays popular, I may drool overthe boys, but I'm still not going to like it like I once did. Believe me I've tried my very, very hardest to regain interest in Kpop, but I know myself well enough now to know that I can't force myself to like something, I just like something or I don't. It would be nice if everybody liked what I liked, but the world doesn't work that way. I know that I like JE best because this fandom keeps me ultra busy and happy. The people are some of the nicest that I've ever met actually. Also I'm attracted to cute and adorable things and what's more adorable than a Johnny's? XD they are all so cute! I can't help myself!! I even joined the dark side and started learning about the juniors. The junior documentary made me cry because I knew how hard they worked, but I never knew HOW HARD they worked! They basically worked 2-3 times as hard as a debuted group because they are responsible for making the show run smoothly. I gained so much respect for that side of the company and my love is just growing deeper and deeper with each passing day for this company!! I love all the groups, I can honestly say that I feel, I may like some more than others, like I know I'm not a huge fan of TOKIO's music but they are a hilarious and funny group that I could watch all day! and I know that Hey! Say! JUMP is hilarious and I love all of their music and if I'm feeling down I can listen to their music to pep me up. Kis-my-ft2 can also lift my spirits and get me moving and Sexy Zone can motivate me to studying or do something, etc. All the groups mean something to me, I love them all dearly! I don't ever want to stop loving them either! But most of all, I don't want to feel pressure to like Kpop again just because it is popular and a lot of people like it, I don't think that is right. I feel I will always have an internal struggle with my relations to Kpop especially because some of my bestest of best friends are huge fans of the genre. Also, all of the Asian girls on my campus are into too ^^; they like BAP, BIG BANG, and EXO. Also they all watch Kdramas, only one of them watches dramas outside of Kdramas to my knowledge and I'm closest to her out of all of the Asian girls on my campus. She has seen and watches Jdramas and Cdramas and even thai dramas! (i love thai dramas or as they are called in thailand lakorns) anyways, I guess what I really want to say is that I LOVE JOHNNY'S and i don't want anyone to take that away from me! as hard as Johnny makes it for me to get a hold of his boys, I still want to be their fan, which is how much I love them. Even if they'll never tour here, which is a shame. I was having a civil discussion with another fan about how they could not tour in America because the fanbase is too small here, which is probably true. I agree on that part, but I feel, and stand by my point of view, if Johnny accommodate his international fans, such as giving us a youtube channel, lifting certain copyright laws, so fans can do reaction videos, small things like that. I feel like more fans would appear, but basically we are filled with dedicated fans because it's too hard to be a casual fan in this fandom, you have to put in the effort. Also I think our fandom is worth putting the effort into, I'm pretty much never bored with what I'm watching, sometimes I can tell by screencaps that I won't enjoy a segment so I just don't download that segment which is why I feel like I can say I just adore everything I watch with Johnny's in it! I wish I could spread the rainbows and sparkles to everyone around me and they'd like it! however, I am succeeding with a friend of mine in college, I have gotten him in Kis-My-Ft2 and Hey! Say! JUMP so I feel accomplished in that aspect, but of course I'd love to meet a dedicated fan in real life, who already knows them and shares my undying love! I guess because Johnny's is the first small fandom that I've ever gotten into as my main fandom, I'm still not used to the feeling even after two years of being here. However, I will never stop loving, I can't. These boys are giving me the drive to move forward everyday and do something with my life!
so Johnny's thank you for being you!! and I will try to not let Kpop bother me anymore, starting with not following it out of obligation, but just letting whatever comes my way, come my way~